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Nothing Left to Perform

Megan Ashford · Book Two · The first two chapters

Chapter One

The third board on the back stair was speaking again.

Tomás stopped on the landing, listened, and put weight on it with his heel. The board answered the way it always did in late August, when the wood remembered no rain for six weeks: a soft pop, then a hairline shift that only mattered if you knew the house. He marked the board in his head, the way he marked everything, and kept climbing.

The west wing smelled of beeswax and sun-dried linen. He had aired the smaller guest room since dawn. Lemon polish on the chestnut chest, fresh water in the carafe, a folded note in three languages on the desk because the booking site never asked which one. He set down the small black-handled paring knife he carried for cutting twine and cord and string, the one Pietro had given him his second Christmas, and tested the brass tap above the sink.

Cold ran easy. He waited. Hot came in late, the way it always did in this room, fifteen seconds behind. A guest expecting an instant shower would write a complaint about it. A guest who knew houses would shrug.

The booking note for the second arrival sat on the chest beside the carafe.

> Travel category: Luxury private transfer. Confirm welcome champagne.

He folded the note and pocketed it.

Down in the courtyard, Julian and Alessandra were arguing.

He could hear them through the open shutters, in the patient tone the villa had taught them. Julian's voice was even and tired. Alessandra's was the one that said no, again, listen. Tomás did not need to step to the window to read the scene. The argument was the south garden wall, second course of stones, the same argument they had been having for three days because the mason from Pienza could not come until Friday and Alessandra wanted to do it themselves before the weekend storms.

Alessandra would win. She always did when the matter was stone.

He went back along the corridor and stopped at the painted-ceiling room.

The door was closed. He opened it carefully, the way one opens a door behind which a sleeping man might be lying, and the room exhaled at him: turpentine, lime wash, dust, the faint sweet rot of old plaster. The conservator from Siena had been here on Tuesday. Half of the ceiling shone like new milk. The other half was still under the lattice of scaffolding, a quadrant of cherubs and pomegranates waiting for their next bath. The floor was sheeted. The bed had been carried into the hall.

He closed the door. Not this room. Not yet. The decision was already made.

The painted-ceiling room was not a room. It was a job.

In the laundry alcove above the loggia, Tomás found the day's sheets half dry on the rope line. He tested a pillowcase between his fingers. Twenty more minutes. The cicadas were already running their afternoon engine. He moved a basket so the breeze from the south corner would catch the heavier linens, took the cracked water jug from the niche where someone, probably Julian, had set it down without noticing the chip on the lip, and carried it downstairs to be retired before it cut a guest's mouth.

Pietro would mend it eventually. Pietro mended everything that did not need new metal.

In the kitchen, the cat that had decided in July she lived here was asleep across the bottom step of the pantry stair. Tomás stepped over her. He moved the jug to the high shelf, put a clean ceramic pitcher in its place on the tray, and looked at the day's list pinned to the corkboard.

Two arrivals. The Dutch couple Trijntje and Bram, fourth night at the villa, taking a day trip to Montepulciano and returning by six. Easy. They knew the road. They knew the water. They had asked nothing on day one and would ask nothing on day four.

The other arrival was the problem.

Caldwell, Miss V. Single occupancy. Three nights to start, possibly extended. Booked through a London travel concierge whose emails came in a font Tomás had learned to distrust. The concierge had referred to Villa Valenti as a private boutique residence and asked, in a separate paragraph, about chilled rosé service at the room.

He had answered the email himself, in his careful English, the night before.

The villa has wine. We open it at the table.

The concierge had not replied.

He went out to the courtyard.

The heat hit him under the loggia arch, dry, white, the kind of August heat that made the swallows fly low. Julian was crouched over a slab of pietra serena with a piece of chalk in his hand. Alessandra was standing behind him with one hand on her hip and the other holding a level, and the level was the part she meant.

"The fourth stone," she said. "Not the third."

"The third is loose."

"The third is loose because the fourth has moved." She tapped the level on the wall. "If you put the fourth back wrong, you will have a wall that looks like it is praying."

Julian made a sound that, two months ago, would have been a New York sound. Now it was almost a Valenti sound. He set the chalk down. He looked up and saw Tomás and lifted his chin in greeting and said, "What's the time?"

"Two." Tomás did not check.

"Driver from Florence said three-thirty."

"Driver from Florence will say four-thirty when he sees the road." Tomás kept walking, toward the small terrace and the gate that opened to the upper drive, and over his shoulder he added, "He will not say four-thirty. He will say his car is hurt."

Alessandra laughed, one bark, dry.

"Did you tell the concierge?" she called after him.

"I told the concierge we open wine at the table."

"Did she answer?"

"No."

"Tomás."

He stopped at the gate and turned. She was holding the level against her shoulder now like a rifle.

"Don't let her bully you," Alessandra said.

He let one beat pass. "She will not."

"And Julian and I will be at the south wall."

"I know."

That was the agreement. The two of them at the wall. The villa to him. It had not been spoken aloud in those words because she would never use those words, but he understood the trust of the silence. He had earned it across two years above the east wing and ten years in the village and three countries before that, and he carried it now the way Pietro carried his folding rule, naturally, without thinking.

He walked up to the upper drive to wait.

The cypresses rasped against each other in the small wind. The road below the villa was a pale ribbon, a thin drift of dust hanging above it where nothing had passed in hours. He listened for an engine. He heard cicadas, a tractor far off in the Ferro vineyards, a dog barking once at Caterina's store. No car. He looked at the sky, west, where the heat had built a faint white veil and where, by midnight, the first crack of late-summer thunder would speak from the ridge above the forest if his shoulders were honest. They usually were.

The car came at four-fifty.

It was a black saloon, polished, the wrong size for the road, low slung where a tourist car should ride high. Tomás watched it climb the last bend slowly, like a guest who had not been told the house was on a hill. The driver's window opened halfway. A young man in a white shirt, sweating, hopeful.

"Villa Valenti?"

"You found it."

The man's relief was so visible that Tomás almost felt sorry for him. He stepped to the rear door. The latch was warm under his hand.

The first thing he saw inside was a pair of white linen trousers and one tan ankle, crossed over the other, a sandal with a single thin strap. Then a phone, held screen-down against a thigh. Then the rest of her, settling forward, taking him in.

She was younger than the booking implied. Late twenties. The kind of polish that survived a long flight: cream silk shirt, knotted at the collarbone, sunglasses pushed into hair that had been blown out somewhere expensive and then ruined slightly by the air on the upper drive. The ruin was the thing he noticed. The hair on the right side near her temple had given up and curled. The makeup along her hairline had begun to slide. The mouth was a careful pink. The eyes were grey-green and very awake.

She smiled at him the way one smiles at a doorman. Warm. Practiced. Effortless. The smile of a woman who had been told from childhood that smiling was a job.

"Good afternoon," she said. "Are you with the house?"

"Yes."

"Wonderful." She put out a hand, palm down, the way a woman in a magazine offers a hand. "Vivienne Caldwell. Most people call me Vivi."

He did not take the hand. He nodded once. "Signora Caldwell. Welcome."

The hand returned to her lap without comment, but he saw her file the gesture away, the way a careful person files a wrong number. Her smile did not move. The driver, behind her, had turned in his seat and was watching this exchange the way a man watches a fight he is not going to be paid for.

"Bags in the back," she said. "I think there are three. There may be four. The concierge said someone would meet me at the lower piazza."

"The lower piazza is for the village," Tomás said. "I came up the drive."

"Did you?"

"You did. He drove."

She laughed. It was a real laugh, surprised out of her, and for a second the polish slipped and she was simply a woman who had been in a car too long.

He opened the boot.

Three cases. One enormous, the wheels of it the wrong size for cobblestones. One small. One canvas, expensive, with a leather strap that smelled new. He took the two heavier ones in one hand and the canvas in the other and put them on the gravel. The driver opened his door, started to get out. Tomás shook his head.

"Stay," he said.

The driver looked at his watch. "Signora Caldwell asked for transfer back to Florence on day three."

"Day three is the day. We will arrange it from here. You do not need to wait."

"My company said..."

"Your company does not know the road." Tomás softened his voice. "After dark, this upper drive is not a road. It is a suggestion. You drove well. Go back while there is light."

The driver's relief came so fast it embarrassed both of them. Vivi was out of the car now, standing on the gravel in the thin sandals, blinking at the white sky. The driver muttered something polite in her direction, took an envelope she handed him, and was already in his seat and turning the wheel before she had finished thanking him.

Tomás watched the black saloon back carefully toward the lower bend.

Behind him, Vivi was taking the villa in.

He let her. He picked up the small case and the canvas bag and stood quietly with her luggage at his feet and let her look. The courtyard wall, the iron gate, the loggia, the curl of the bougainvillea that had eaten the south corner this summer, the cracked dipper at the wellmouth, the lemon tree in its terracotta pot with the small router taped to the underside of its bench. The flagstones, sun-warm. The shutters, half closed against the heat. The cat, who had appeared in the kitchen doorway and was watching the new woman the way the village watched outsiders.

He waited until the looking had finished its first round and Vivi remembered he was there.

"Your suitcase," he said, indicating the largest. "I will roll it for you. The wheels are not made for the stones."

"Oh, you don't have to do that."

"I will roll it for you."

Her chin lifted, half a degree. The smile re-set. "Thank you. So kind."

She had a voice trained on radio. Round vowels, careful r's, a small drop on the last word of every sentence as if every sentence were a gift she was placing on a table.

He tilted the case onto two wheels and started across the courtyard. She followed in the strap sandals, finding out one step at a time that the courtyard was not a hotel lobby. The stones were uneven. The light at the loggia was harsher than she had expected. She fanned herself, twice, with the back of her hand, then stopped, because no one fans themselves at a hotel except in pictures.

"The painted ceiling," she said. "My booking confirmation mentioned a painted ceiling."

"Yes."

"That's the one I'm in."

"That is not the one you are in."

She stopped walking. He stopped with her. He set the case carefully upright and turned to face her in the colonnade shade. He could see one fine bead of sweat under her ear. He could see, behind her left shoulder, Julian appear at the courtyard arch with a chalk smudge on his cheekbone, look once, read the conversation, and not come closer. Alessandra stepped behind Julian. Her hand brushed his elbow. The two of them stayed where they were.

His house. His guest.

"The painted ceiling room is under restoration this week," Tomás said. "A conservator from Siena is finishing the east quadrant. The floor is sheeted. The bed is in the hall. You cannot sleep in that room. It is not safe."

"My concierge—"

"Wrote what she hoped. I wrote what is true."

The polish flickered. The smile came back a half-second slower, a touch realer. He watched her recalibrate and almost approved.

"All right," she said. "Where am I, then?"

"In the smaller west room. It is cool until midnight. The hot water comes in fifteen seconds behind the cold. The window faces the kitchen garden, not the valley. The valley is the painted-ceiling room. We will see when the conservator is finished."

"Is there air-conditioning?"

"No."

"Is there—"

"There are shutters. There is a stone floor. There is a fan." He paused. "There is a house."

A small, dry beat. The cat in the kitchen doorway sat down.

Vivi looked at the courtyard, at the loggia with its half-dry sheets, at Julian and Alessandra by the arch, at the chalk smudge, at the level still in Alessandra's hand. Her smile reset for the fourth time since the car, and this time he could hear, faintly, the click of it being put on.

"Then I'd like to speak to the person in charge," she said.

The cat in the doorway yawned.

Tomás picked up the case and tilted it back onto its wheels and met her eyes for the first time fully, without softening.

"You are speaking to him," he said.

Chapter Two

The smaller west room had a fan.

Vivi closed the door behind her, locked it for the principle of it, and stood with her back against the chestnut for a slow count of ten. The room smelled of beeswax and something herbal she could not name. There was no mini bar. There was no kettle. There was a clay pitcher of water on the desk with a slice of lemon floating in it, and the lemon had a leaf still attached, which she found, for reasons she could not articulate, the most personally affronting object in the room.

She walked once around the bed. Iron frame. Linen sheets, the rough kind, the kind the Caldwell stylist would have called artisanal and her mother would have called village. The shutters were closed against the heat, slatted, throwing white bars across the floor. The window did face the kitchen garden. She could hear, distinctly, a chicken.

This was, she decided, going to be an excellent story.

She unbuckled the strap of her sandal and let it fall. The stone floor was cool. She tried the fan on the desk. It worked. The blades, on the highest setting, made a noise she had not heard a fan make since boarding school. She turned it back to two and sat on the edge of the bed and laughed, once, without sound.

A boutique residence, the concierge had written. A discreet jewel of the Val d'Orcia. Personal butler service in the great Continental tradition.

The personal butler had refused her hand.

She would write to Imogen tonight. Darling, the butler is built like a Spanish saint and dislikes me on principle, and the wine is opened at the table, by which I think they mean nowhere else. Imogen would laugh. The story would land at a Notting Hill dinner in three weeks and she would have, again, the only thing she had ever quite trusted about herself, which was the ability to take a humiliation and put it on a plate and serve it with a small laugh.

She lay back on the bed and looked at the ceiling.

The ceiling was unpainted. The ceiling was plaster. The ceiling had a hairline crack in the south corner that did not go anywhere, only began. She stared at it long enough that her eyes blurred and the crack widened and narrowed and widened and narrowed.

The phone in her hand pulsed.

She had eight messages from her mother.

Tell me you are not actually in Italy.

Vivi, darling, we have the Vale family on the eleventh.

Henry has bought a ring. Don't be cross.

The Vogue piece will need a photograph by month-end.

Vivi.

Vivi.

Vivi pick up the phone.

If this is about Henry's friend in Mykonos I will tell you what I told you in May.

The Mykonos friend was not the matter. The Mykonos friend was an old matter. The new matter was Henry himself, who was thirty-four, who had a jaw like a hotel brochure, who had asked her at the Caldwell-Vale joint board meeting last month whether she had any real objection to the announcement at the September dinner. He had asked it the way a man asks whether a colleague minds a particular Thursday for a presentation.

She had said, No, of course not.

She had said it because she had been smiling, and because she had been smiling because there were nineteen people in the room and three of them were her stepfather's lawyers, and because the day she stopped smiling in front of her stepfather's lawyers was the day Caldwell hospitality would lose the option to call her, as the Vogue piece intended to call her, the fourth-generation custodian of a family vision.

She had said no, of course not. She had gone home. She had packed a bag. She had told no one.

The fan went on its small clean noise.

She typed back: I am at a villa in Tuscany. I am not coming to the September dinner. She did not press send.

She put the phone face down on the linen and looked at the back of her own wrist, where the little scar from a horse bite at twelve still showed pale on the tan.

A knock on the door.

She sat up. The room turned once. "Yes?"

A woman's voice, on the other side. Italian. Not the butler.

"Signora? I bring you something to eat. Open the door, please."

Vivi opened the door.

The woman in the corridor was small, sixty, wide. She wore a navy apron washed many times and a white shirt under it ironed within an inch of its life. Her hair was iron grey, pulled back, and her arms were the arms of a woman who had carried trays uphill for forty years. She held a wooden board on which there was bread, a bowl of olives, a small dish of oil, a slice of pecorino, a folded napkin, and a tomato cut open and salted.

"Lucia," the woman said. "From the trattoria."

"Vivi."

"Vivi."

Lucia walked into the room without being invited, set the board on the desk, moved the clay pitcher two inches to make room for it, and stood looking at her with the appraising, unembarrassed attention of a woman pricing a horse. The appraisal passed over the cream silk, the curling hair, the bare feet, the face-down phone.

"Eat," Lucia said.

"I'm not hungry, thank you, I—"

"Eat. The car was hot. The road was long. You did not eat on the plane."

Vivi started to laugh, because it was the only available move, and stopped, because Lucia was already turning to leave, and there had been no plate, no flourish, no waiting for thanks. The bread had a corner already torn off, as if Lucia had taken her own first piece on the walk up the hill.

"Lucia, may I ask something?"

"Ask."

"Is the butler always like that?"

Lucia stopped at the door. The mouth did something that might, in a less careful face, have been a smile. "Tomás?"

"Tomás."

"He is always like that with people who use the word butler."

The door closed.

Vivi stood for a moment in the white-barred light, looking at the board. The tomato was so red it embarrassed the room. The pecorino had a tear on one edge where a knife had not bothered with neatness. The olive oil smelled, when she leaned over it, of cut grass and pepper and something almost animal.

She ate a piece of bread standing.

It was the best bread she had eaten in a year, and she resented it the way one resents an old lover who has done something kind by accident. She tore another piece. She ate the tomato with her fingers. The juice ran into her palm. She wiped it on the linen napkin, then noticed the napkin had been folded by someone who folded napkins for a living, and put it back the way she had found it, and ate two olives, and spat the pits onto the board because there was no other plate.

The room kept its quiet.

She had spent her entire adult life in rooms that performed quietness for money. The Mandarin. The Connaught. The little Caldwell in Marrakesh with its lemon trees and its piped oud. This room did not perform anything. The fan made its small honest noise. The chickens in the kitchen garden continued their afternoon. A man whistled somewhere downstairs and stopped whistling and a different man's voice answered him, low. Outside the shutters, very faint, two women were arguing about a stone.

She caught herself, palm against the desk, and made herself laugh.

This was, she said again, in the room of her head, going to be an excellent story.

She washed her face at the basin. The hot water came in late, exactly as the butler had said. She tied her hair back. She put on the flat sandals she had packed for the airport, a thin cardigan against the imagined air-conditioning that was not going to materialise. She picked up the phone. She put it down. She went downstairs.

The back stair was narrower than the front. Halfway down, a board popped under her weight and she stopped, embarrassed at a stair, and went on. At the bottom there was a small alcove with a window onto the kitchen garden and a corkboard on the wall. The corkboard had a paper map tacked to it. The map was hand-drawn, in black ink, with the villa as a small square and a thin road and a hatched area to the north marked bosco. Forest. There were three trails on the map, marked with red dotted lines. One of them ended at a small symbol. A wavy line, a half circle.

A waterfall.

She looked at the map for the length of a held thought and did not take it down.

Behind her, footsteps.

She turned with the practiced half-second that, in London, made men think they had caught her in candid thought. Tomás was in the corridor with a stack of pressed linen across one forearm and his small black-handled knife loose in his other hand. He had taken off the jacket he had been wearing in the courtyard. The white shirt was rolled to the elbow. He glanced at her once, took in the cardigan and the flat sandals, glanced at the corkboard behind her shoulder, glanced back at her face, and did not slow.

"Tomás," she said, brightly. The brightness was a reflex. "I wonder if I could trouble you for ice. And is there somewhere with a stronger signal? I keep dropping."

"Ice is in the kitchen. The lemon tree corner has the signal."

"The lemon tree corner."

"In the loggia. The router is taped under the bench."

"Charming."

"It works."

He had answered the question. He had not answered the smile. He stepped past her with the linen and the knife and the smell of clean shirts, and the corridor where she had positioned herself for a conversation became, without his stopping, simply a corridor. She heard the small board pop behind him on the way up.

She stood for a second longer than she meant to.

Then she walked toward the voices in the kitchen, because there was nowhere else to walk, and because if she was going to live in this house for three days she might as well meet the heart of it that every travel piece she had ever ghost-edited had promised her existed.

The kitchen was a long room. Stone floor. A black iron stove. A scrubbed table the size of a small boat. Garlic on a string. A copper pan with a dent in the rim. The cat from the courtyard was now on a windowsill, washing one paw. At the stove, with her back to the door, stood the woman from the courtyard arch. Alessandra. Hair pulled up. Dark cotton shirt rolled to the elbow. She was running a small towel under cold water at the basin and wringing it out with quick efficient hands.

"Signora Ferraro," Vivi said, because the concierge had used the surname.

Alessandra turned. The towel came up to her own forearm, where there was a long red graze from wrist to elbow, fresh, the kind of graze stone gives.

"Caldwell," Alessandra said.

"Vivi."

"Caldwell."

She had pale brown eyes that did not move when she looked at a person. She held the wet towel against her own forearm without looking down at it. "Welcome to the villa," she said, with no warmth and no rudeness, and went back to the basin.

"You're hurt."

"I will live."

"Is there—"

"There is the towel."

Lucia, who had reappeared without footsteps, was at the stove pouring something dark into a small pan. "She fights with stones," Lucia said over her shoulder. "Stones win sometimes."

Alessandra made a small sound that was not quite a laugh.

Vivi watched the two women for a second. They moved around each other in the kitchen the way two people who had been in the same kitchen for ten years moved around each other. There was no choreography. There was simply space and not space and a pan moved before it needed to be moved. Vivi, who had grown up in kitchens designed by men who had been paid to design kitchens, recognised the difference and disliked recognising it.

"I am very sorry," she heard herself say, in her radio voice, "to descend on you at the back end of August. The concierge had me booked into a different room and—"

"The painted-ceiling room is closed," Alessandra said.

"Yes, Tomás explained."

"Tomás is correct."

"Of course."

Alessandra rinsed the towel again. She glanced, once, at Vivi's cardigan, the silk shirt under it, the white linen trousers, the careful pink mouth. The look was not unkind. It was the look of a woman pricing whether a particular piece of fabric would hold up to a particular kind of week.

"You will be all right here," Alessandra said. "If you let the house be the house."

"I shall try."

A small shrug. The towel went back to the basin. "Lucia made you something."

"I have eaten, thank you. Lucia is wonderful."

"Lucia is Lucia."

Lucia did not look up. "The young woman has not eaten enough," she said to the pan. "She ate two olives, one tomato, a corner of bread. She is afraid of the cheese."

"I am not afraid of the cheese."

"Then eat the cheese."

Vivi laughed, properly this time, and then heard the laugh and put it away, because it was not the laugh she had brought to Italy.

The phone in her pocket pulsed.

She did not look at it. She thanked Alessandra. She thanked Lucia. She turned, and behind her, low, Lucia said in Italian to Alessandra, the waterfall trail is dry this week, no one is up there. Alessandra answered something Vivi did not catch about the storm coming Friday.

Vivi went out into the loggia.

The phone pulsed again. She walked the length of the colonnade with it warm in her palm. She came to the lemon tree in its pot, the small router taped under the bench, and the white sky stretched flat overhead. She sat on the bench. She looked at the screen.

Vivi this is Henry. Your mother says you've gone abroad. I have asked them to hold the announcement until the eleventh as a courtesy to your travel. Please call.

Vivi.

Vivi please.

She tapped the phone icon. He answered on the second ring.

"Hen."

"Vivi."

"I'm in Italy."

"Yes, I gathered."

"I'm taking a few days. I'll be back before the dinner."

"You'll be back to say yes." His voice was the perfectly reasonable voice of a man who had paid for the table at which the dinner would happen. "Your mother has the photographer booked. I have the ring with me. Don't be theatrical."

She closed her eyes.

The cypresses rasped. The cat had come out and sat on the loggia tiles.

"I'm not being theatrical," she said. "I am taking a few days."

"You are being theatrical. Look. I am being patient. I have been patient for a year. I will be patient for the rest of the week. You have until Friday, and then I am going to ask your mother to send a car. Are we agreed?"

A car. A car to fetch her from Italy. From this villa. She saw, very clearly, her stepfather's driver standing in this courtyard with one polite hand on his cap, and Tomás watching from the loggia, and the small sour fact of being collected like a parcel.

"Friday," she said.

"Friday."

"Goodbye, Henry."

She hung up.

She sat very still on the bench with the lemon tree above her. She wiped the phone on her trouser leg and stood up.

She went back through the loggia. The kitchen door was closed now. The corridor was empty in the way corridors are empty in houses where everyone is doing real work somewhere else. She walked to the alcove. The corkboard. The hand-drawn map, the bosco, the half circle.

She glanced both ways. She lifted the map off its single pin, folded it small, and slid it into the pocket of her cardigan.

The fan was still going in the smaller west room.

She closed the door behind her and stood with her back to it and listened to her own breath move, slow and quiet, in a room that did not perform anything for her. Outside the shutters, somewhere west, a faint white edge had begun, very slowly, to climb the sky.

The story is just beginning.

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